December 20th, 2014 1:23am we went communication black out. Like couples who stay away from one another days before a wedding to really revel in the anticipation. More than anything our distance not talking didn't give me any time to freak out and shut down...he didn't have the option to bail without the option to say he wasn't coming.
I can see that now though at the time all I could think and see was bumblebees.
Bumblebees is how Nic quickly helped me to re-percieve my anxiety.