The water is too hot but I'm not doing this to relax, I'm trying to melt the tension in my joints. Epsom salt. Dream home nonnegotiables- epic soaking tub. Maybe just a salt water hot tub. Both.
Rowan is learning to talk and smiling so much. He likes books. I am going to, want to, read to him more. Maybe we'll do Cursed Child together.
I want a travel alter and when I come a new place I set up a safe space. The massage room here works great. Or the workout space. Anywhere I can be alone. With magic rocks and oils and cards. Candles, icons and a comfy seat. Probably any alter cloth. I would also like a singing bowl.
I cant decide between another cup or coffee or another Shakeo. Maybe a vanilla latte Shakeo would answer all my desires. Cashew milk, ice, cold espresso or coffee, almond extract, pumpkin spice, vanilla Shakeo, blended. fuck yes.
Four more monutes I have to keep writing; I'm committed to 30 mins everyday and we'll do that for a week and check in. I fell off the wagon but it's because I wasn't riding on the right bus. I tried to start and do my same journey over but being a d different person with different struggles requires a new, different strategy.
I have to start with the food before I can move to working out. I want to do the ultimate reset but can't while breastfeeding. There are things I feel like I need to be doing for myself right now but that means sacrificing feeding him from my body anymore. We could try to reset...maybe I need to research more. Yes, THAT.
Pne minute to go and my waters getting cold. time to watch Sausage Party.